As some of you know my mom had leukemia. She went into remission but that did not last very long. She recently relapsed and after her first round of chemo got an infection. They think it was fungal in nature and mostly contained in her blood, unfortunately due to her being a human her blood is everywhere in her body.

She’s in critical condition currently and her prognosis is not very positive. She had been intubated and pretty much everything is going in and out her through a tube. This is really the first time I’ve had to deal with someone I’m close with in any state remotely like my mom is. She was still herself even though she was mostly sedated. I thought she was completely out but when she was first intubated i sat next to her for a couple hours, she opened her eyes and realized i was there and reached out to me. I held her hand and wept. I think this was the most emotional distress i have ever felt in a single moment. This was when I knew it might be over. When I left her that day I cried, I cried almost as much as I cried today.

I can’t tell if she was starting to look better or if I was getting used to seeing her this way, but I went from giving up to regaining a little hope. She’d been in ICU for 6 days and while we’ve been battling cancer for over a year now, it’s finally dawned on me that my parents are mortal…and not a moment too soon. I think she was ready to go, there were indications but I won’t divulge them here. She passed away this morning.

If any of you make wishes or say prayers i ask humbly that you make room for my mother in them.

Holi, 2008

Iron Man 3 – 2012 – Robert Downey Jr.
Green Hornet – 2011 – Seth Rogen
Captain America – 2011 – Chris Evans
Thor – 2011 – Chris Hemsworth (Also worth noting, the beautiful Natalie will be co-starring)
THE AVENGERS – 2012 – Joss Whedon

And from the much better, and sadly lesser utilized universe, DC:

The Green Lantern – 2011 – Ryan Reynolds
Jonah Hex – June 18th, 2010 – Josh Brolin, but seriously you need to look at the whole cast list:

• Megan Fox
• John Malkovich
• Will Arnett
• and that’s enough for me to go see it. Also, I love modernized westerns (read: firefly)

And finally, the next batman. Enough said.

Did I miss anything? Comment below….

I fucking hate this channel. Let’s count the number of AMAZING shows, some of which developed cult like followings, that FOX has canceled over the years. First and foremost, Firefly. Easily in my opinion the greatest show to ever exist, and I think the IMDB ratings agree at a 9.5/10 with 32,000+ votes. I am a huge Joss Whedon nut, so maybe I’m biased a bit, but this show is what made me a Joss Whedon nut. I liked Buffy and I loved Angel but Firefly is really what did me in. Anyways, this carries on to the next problem: Dollhouse. Again, one of my favorite TV shows currently running, and just got canned. Another one of Joss’s masterpieces, and there’s but a few episodes left. Why Whedon stays with fox, nobody will ever know.

Let’s look at some others:
Terminator: Sarah Connor Chronicles – Why? It’s not like the show had bad ratings.
Titus – Considered by me to be one of the best comedies ever to air.
Dark Angel – Jessica Alba, I don’t need to say more. But it was actually a good show too.
Drive – Lasted 4 episodes, only aired 2 more ONLINE. What a fucking rip, I wanted to see this season SO bad.
Family Guy – While I’m not a fan, it’s easy to see how popular this show became. Why this show was canceled is beyond me.
Futurama – This show filled the void that was being left behind by the Simpsons continuing WAY past their prime and South Park only having a few gems a season.
Arrested Development – Come on FOX, why do you hate the world?

In conclusion, fuck FOX and their stupid ratings driven boner.

Essentially, I’m just linking you to my LinkedIn profile. I remember the site when it was first launched, and I never thought I’d make a profile. It’s come a long way since then, and I succumbed. Man I love social networking sites…minus myspace.

I noticed the background of the main-content area was on repeat, and because it’s so light I didn’t notice it until this week, decided to fix it today since I’m more or less trapped at home helping me dad cleaning up, we have relatives from India on the way.

Besides that, I’m working on putting a tag cloud in here, which subsequently means I’m tagging all the posts and pages. Once I put a tag cloud into place, I plan on adding a few more features–among them updating the links underneath the banner to be something more…dynamic and css-ish. That image thing…I think I just did it because I was nostalgic for the table colspan and rowspan days. If you know what that means, then you understand =)

Anywho, lots of little tweaks incoming, and maybe a few big ones. I’m really satisfied with the color scheme of this website, but I may be changing some graphics around. Initially this page was designed for me to do lyrical analysis, but my goals-ADD has prevented me from ever doing that. I may still, but being as nothing on this site is really music themed, I thought maybe I’d get away from the music themed graphics…but I do like it still. So, if you’re interested, look out for minor updates here and there. So far all I did was fix the repeating problem and make a full unscheduled backup of everything before I start changing things.

All in all, I suppose I’m very lucky. No back, spinal, neck, or head injuries. My arms are really torn up, and I think my rotator cuff is sprained. I can only lift my arm in certain ways. I had an x-ray to rule out hairline fractures, but for some reason (health insurance is blah) i’m waiting to get my MRI. I googled up some physical therapy for rotary cuff recovery, and I did some of the exercises. I definitely feel it, I can hear the ligaments when I do them. the exercises are meant to simply stretch and use the muscles while putting as little stress on them as possible. It doesn’t hurt, but it is tedious. Well, lesson learned I guess…

From now on, I’ll be wearing my gear even just to sit on my bike while it’s off. Fuck I’m stupid. No photos, sorry. I’m not vain enough to believe people want to see my scars. I may take this time stuck in my room to update my site, add a few new sections and stuff. We’ll see. Anyways, don’t be as stupid as me. Wear the gear, it will save your life.